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Save your backside; save the world.

had biology make up yesterday.honestly it was fun.and stressful.definitely great to see nigel again.poor boy,kept holding on to his wound as though his intestines would spill out if he continued walking.BUT i understand ur pain buddy.hahh.can tell that ms choong missed nigel.she kept calling him to answer tutorial questions and bravo to him for he knew most of the answers.hardworking boy,studied while recuperating.

after make up we went to j8 to satisfy mr. kok siang's desire for long john silver.he just recovered from throat infection and yesterday he said 'DIE DIE TODAY MUST EAT LONG JOHNS' and yes he was like a happy kid after lunch.hahaha.poor nigel,had to watch us eat.he stole my fry.nono my fries.hahaha.pity long john didnt have any porridge.

basically after i got home, i slept.and slept.and SLEPT TILL FREAKING 7.30pm.woo.tats like 4hrs?i had hokkein mee for lunch and i did some bio SPA revision and followed by some math.midnight i sneaked down to catch liverpool playing.only to see them lose.oh wells, it was a super slack game.come on, reina became a midfielder.he looked sooo comical.but thank god bellamy and pennent(did i spell it correctly?)are not flops.whee cant wait for epl to start.

today,i completed my hol assigment which was due yrs back(LOL). poor zd, couldnt squeeze many papers from us.i even took his paper for CROSS REFERENCINGG!haha.i am quite happy today because i also completed my math tutorial 8B including Assigment 8B.i hope i did them right.i guess i am left with GP compre.tats wat i am going to do tonight.yays.early nite for me today.haha.tata~

oh its been awhile since i last blogged ! anyway, had a great day yesterday. shi yin,jasmine,zhengda, kok siang and i went to j8 for lunch as kok siang had a sudden craving for long john's silver.but too bad,we had to settle for kfc instead =X thks to the lunching crowd. ha. oh zhengda hung his boot case on kentucky's hand.he walked towards it and said ' hello can u hold this for me? thank you. ' i swore those girls beside kentucky were stunned at his lameness.they were like giggling and giggling. sure enough, the boot case attracted quite a lot of attention.until zd had to keep looking at it to make sure no one takes it away. haha after lunch we realised we had loads of time so we caught THE LAKEHOUSE (w/o zd as he had to go back for badminton). yes nigel, THE LAKEHOUSE.hhaha. i must say i was confused at first having 0 knowledge abt the movie.but later i realised it was actually a very very nice show.yes nigel,it was a VERRY VERY nice show.

take care nigel,this paragraph is dedicated to u.i know it hurts,the wound,everything.rest well my fren.hope u are very well now.hope to see u real real soon.

anyway after the movie,kok siang was still blurred at wat the show was abt.poor boy,a little slow hahaahha.kidding kidding.after our movie we walked to RJC for our talk.as me and kok siang approached 3 RJC girls,they walked past us as we said may i know... i think they tot we wanted their numbers.it was until i mentioned school when the centre one eventually said 'OH,sorry sorry' ha. i must tell u,walking up to RJC is tiring but i am amazed by their large campus.

there, we happily barged into LT1 where many students and teachers stared at us.guess wat,they were having special paper! haha.i ran out quickly.really ran.anyway the talk rocks.its really an enriching talk.i was amazed how the lecturer could explain the concepts in simpleton sentences.well donee!

ok i better do my work.still have biology extra tutorials tmr.and SPA biology is coming !! freaking scared.but i hope i will be fine then.take care pple,esp u nigel. tata~ (:

dang i finally managed to blurt out my mid yr marks to daddy last night.he says i always hide them.naturally,he's freaking piss.cld see the smoke coming out of his ears.yeahh,restrictions are coming in.from now,no more football for me.he says the world cup simply killed me.after all i had a hat trick of S followed by a brace of U for my mid yrs.

this morning he chewed my butt again becos i forgot to tell him my econs marks.i dared not tell him 4/20.i think my head would have rolled.i just told him 40%.but haiz,i guess he will know later on when report book comes?oh crap,i got my NS registration instruction letter the other day.as blurred as ever, i went to apply when the date on the letter showed apply from 26 july. - .- plain stupidity.still lied to gary tat i applied. but how would i know,the damn website hung on me.i decided to start my exercise from today but since dad scolded me last night,i shall procrastinate.wahaha procrastination kills by the way.take my tutorials for example.procrastinate,procrastinate and procrastinate.finally u get a mountain of tutorials from just a little molehill.bahhh i have decided to change.for the better of course.no point saying and not do anything. I SWEAR I AM GOING 2 BUCK UP!

just watch me.i have to change.its now or NEVER..

gosh,this morning my auntie told me dad asked her for my marks.looks like i cant hide any longer.my mid yrs are super bad and i dunno wat am i going to do.i am still not awake.surely there'll be restrictions.*waves to epl.haiz tats wat jc life is abt huh?no wait a minute,there aint no life in jc man. =(

whee!finally i learnt how to make the shoelaces thingy.thks to ms ker yi hao and mr lin zhengda's super coaching.i realised i STILL have loads of work to do.let me think let me think.fine,i shall do my bio DNA revision and tutorials BY tonight followed by a dose of vectors revision and tutorial tmr morning.mid afternoon maybe i will do more chemistry revision and end of the nite after church and dinner with my retarded EOM.when i say retarded i mean it, my EOM is horrid.no wait wait,it doesnt even exist!wahah.no article to evaluate at all.i am so screwed?well this is just the beginning of my screwed chewed up life.there's more to come.i can feel it in my bones ....

ok this is the first pirates show i have ever found funny. mr devy jones.speaking of him, i had him for dinner today.steamed octopus to be precise.wahahah.ok tats lame.after school we were so bored so me and kok siang decided to watch pirates of the carribean which rocked.ohh dang i drank sooo much water before we entered the theatre so i ran twice to the toilet -.- heh.so moral of the story,dun drink too much water before watching am movie.

i received my NS letter today.have to register already.dang i cant wait for the enriching experience.haha.i must must must get the two mth reduction from BMT.in another words,i must do well for my NS NAPFA.GOLD GOLD GOLD !!! RAR. ok i shall exercise more regularly from now on.i realised i have gained some weight and instaed of abs i have fats now.-.- okies.i shall go help gary with his registration. =P

POOP ! its been a weak of chaoticness (is there such a word) and finally its going to end.i wanna thank grandpa for guiding me thru oral and giving me an easy question.at least i could shake off my nerviness (once again,is there such word?). ah listening compre is next tues someone pls remind me to dig my ears on mon ! and yay,friday we have an owed holiday ! hmmm shld we go to sentosa or watch pirates. tough choice. i hate sentosa esp after the nasty nasty annoying itchy witchy unforgettable rash i had earlier this yr after swimming half naked in the waters -.-

today met up with pw mates (without stanley) at bugis. as usual, we were blurred out by wat we are supposed to find. not that we are lazy but we are just so stuck. horrible topic. should have chosen something else. but oh wells, now tat we cant U-turn (no matter how much we want to) maybe we shld just concentrate. dun give up alright, mates? lets do wat we can with no regrets. we made a mistake, so we bear the consequences. the saying goes 'one for all, all for one'. we are made to go thru this. i swear to give my all. but it takes 2 hands to clap (:

sitting in the bus listening to the song 'my wish' by rascal flatts. oh its such a meaningful song. i love it.want the song ask me for it. rascal flatts are a jolly good band. alternative rock i suppose? or are they a christian band. oh watever they still rock !oh yeah ! josh groban has a mighty voice which i love. crap how i wish i cld sing like him. *grins with jealousy*

oh yeahh pple,dun upsize ur ice lemon tea from mos. i visited the toilet 7 over times after slurping tat large cup of tea.alrighty will update again ! cheers pple !

Hail to the King for he has fallen. Yes, just short of 9 years to his first century as King, he has fallen.

It was on sports day itself when i visited my granddad in the ICU. It was his 1st week in the ICU. The heart operation was a success but expectedly, his organs failed him. His kidneys were close to not functioning at all and basically they cldnt take the dye required for MRI. I just cant express how i felt when i saw the dialysis machine beside his bed, feeding tubes inserted into his nose. His sad eyes, filled with tears, stared aimlessly at the ceiling. I called out to him but all he cld do was to roll his eyes as his hands were strapped to the bed (to prevent him from pulling the tubes). It was a few days back only when he showed signs of losing his memory. As the days went by he was struggling to talk and even complained of objects flying around in his room. Honestly, i feared the worst.

2 yrs back i remember i was at my grandad's house, i was happy to see him. He was always at the door with a smile. Told me to study hard everytime i visited and even shook my hand earlier this yr after i got my results. I sat in his house thinking of how much i love him and i really wished he wldnt leave at all. Selfish i know, but i am sure most of us are like tat. Who wants to lose thier love ones?

Seeing my grandpa on the hospital bed, was heart wrenching. I prayed and prayed for some miracle that he will be ok. But i lost hope when i saw his blood pressure. It was an all time low. Not a gd sign. I said goodbye to him and soon i was gone. I noticed he hardly blinked his eyes. Doc said he was slower in response due to the toxins in his body. Apparently it affected his brain.

I woke up. The sky was still dark. Heard noises, doors banging. What was happening? i came out only to see the empty room of my parents. BAD feeling. It was around 6.50am ..
my sis called mummy getting a reply 'grandpa is very sick' i shrugged it off only to receive a call a few minutes later asking all of us to gwt down as soon as possible. i knew something was wrong. and i was right. his heart stopped.

when i saw the sad faces of my parents i went oh no oh no. dad explained-grandpa's heart stopped tat very morning, nurses revived his heart to keep it beating so we cld all see him breathe his last. he was already brain dead. i practically ran to his room. he looked worse. i knew then my grandpa was gone. beside was a new machine, pumping oxygen into his lungs. he looked as though he was breathing, but he's alr brain dead. his blood pressure was getting lower and lower. his heart was obviously tired. 1 injection the blood pressure shoots to 200 only for it to come down to 30. another injection the same way it went up then down. 3rd injection it went to 100 only. We all knew it was only a matter of time. after all of us greeted grandpa, we watched him go. it was painful, i chose to stay outside.

no matter how strong i thought i was, i knew i couldnt control. when mummy came out in tears saying he was gone. i muttered an 'i know' answer and soon i felt tears dripping down my face. control control control ! i cldnt control. i cld hear aunt's voice 'its my fault its my fault,i shldnt have let him go for the operation.' how can i not cry. just when i tot i stopped crying aunt judy put her hands on my shoulders and told me to be strong. SNAP. out came my tears. it was the first time i cried so hard.i was choking and gasping for breath. i was brought to another corner. somewhere where i wldnt hear the funeral arrangements.

5 days passed fast.even though he is gone physically, i know he will always be around me spiritually. he's in all of us. i know it becos i believe in it. i love my grandpa i know he wont leave me like this. i cant wait to see him again.

in loving memory of the greatest and strongest grandpa on earth(he has no dentures at 91 yrs old and can walk with a perfect posture-straight back and hardly uses walking stick),
mr joseph tan lip ker 1915-2006

Quote of the day
True and False are attributes of speech, not of things. And where speech is not, there is neither Truth nor Falsehood.
Thoms Hobbes ['Leviathan', 1651]