Time To Grow Lyrics by Lemar Last night I tried but I couldn't sleep Thoughts of you were in my head I was lonely and I needed you next to me Life is harder since you left I never meant to do you wrong And now all is said and done I hope you won't be gone too long/ No
[Chorus] Where do I go What do I do I can't deny I still feel something And girl, I wish you could say you feel the same You've broken the bond I gotta move on But how do I end this lonely feeling? You've gone, I'm here, alone I guess it's time to grow
I try to speak, but my words never catch the air Like you never knew I was there Take me back to the days when you really cared Can we make love re-appear? I can't go on the roads too long And now all is said and done I can't go forward if my heart's still where i'm coming from
[Chorus]
Crying time is over I know I can't control her feelings If she won't return, then I guess I'll be a man and move on
Time to grow / And move on Make life better than it was before Time to grow and move on Make love better than I did before [repeat]
Though you've gone / And I'm here, alone I guess it's time to grow
spoke at : 5:38 PM
long long time
haiz,it had been multiple days since i last saw my ec.where are you?we live so near yet i dun see u so often now.today's teacher's day so i decided to wait for u.and yes it did pay off.i managed to see u.i thank God for tat.i also want to thank God for giving such beautiful hair,such beautiful eyes and such a beautiful smile that can really knock the daylights out of me and thus my mouth is wide open.
today i had fun despite the horrid coughing i have now.wateve happened the night before i shall not talk abt it.i dun blog unhappy stuff here.well ok i do but..nvm i shall not talk abt it.the concert at nyjc was great esp the singing.wow brilliant.at ftpss, i saw many old frens, chatted up with many old teachers and of course had a lonngggg lunch with some of them.whee i shall show u the pics pics pics.
spoke at : 5:13 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006
chasing cars
heard of that song by snow patrol? they are one hell of a GREAT band.chasing cars simply simply rock the shit out of me lol.too exaggerated i guess.hmmm.
yesterday i decided to do something foolish-wait for u.yes u my bus stop ec.thankfully i didnt have to wait long and gratefully i had my fren to accompany me.i was certainly very happy to see u yesterday.how i wish our eyes cld meet.it wld be nice.i terribly missed u.its becos of u my thursdays are the best days of the week as well as my life.how long will this feeling stay?i hope its here to stay but wat does GOd have for us.
i tried doing something after we alighted.i didnt turn ard immediately.i walked around the bend and when i eventually turned around,she was looking at me !! haha.what is she feeling.i dun know.all i knew was i kept turning around to look at her.nono i meant we just kept turning and looking at each other.its funny becos in the bus we do not see eye to eye.i hope the feeling she has is a gd one.pity i have no guts to approach her.i am shy i guess.as i said i dared not smile at her and i must say tat i almost wanted to wave at her yesterday.i missed her smiley face even now as i am blogging in the school library waiting for biology olympiad to start.i hope i can see her later.but i guess i cant.till the next usual thursday we meet.nxt week i doubt we will see each other.its teacher's day celebration.haiz..
oh yes.i dun understand parents sometimes.they are just so ...anyway everytime when i order fatty food,i get scolding becos i am eating unhealthily plus i dun exercise often.fine.i decided to excercise yesterday so i went for a run and to train my pull-ups.guess wat.i got a SCOLDING FOR EXERCISING.to dad it was a WASTE OF TIME.wat the hell.wats wrong with him.argh.made my blood boil.he even said i am not even studying economics.when i tell him HONESTLY THAT I DO STUDY ECONS,he says i am lying becos he never sees me doing econs.OMG DOES HE EXPECT ME TO BE DOING ECONS WHEN HE IS LOOKING AT ME?CANT I DO IT AT MY OWN TIME.WAT THE HELL.menopausing i suppose ... another haiz..
hope the following days will be better.i have pw to clear up.my oral presentation is judged by mr lawrence and ms irene teo!its on the second day somemore from 1-2pm and the best part is we have to report by 11.30am ANOTHER HAIZ...
spoke at : 4:47 PM
Thursday, August 24, 2006
sitting in the school library
CONFUSED. argh. its been 4 over days since i last saw her and yes i was glad to see her this morning.her usual thursdays, armed with her badminton raquet(heck the spelling) she made her way to the bus stop.i so much wanted to smile at her but think abt it.
imagine i dun even know who the hell u are and u smile at me. i will so freak out. i am sure she wld. or worse come to worse she thinks i am some sort of bian tai.tats the magnificent impression i wanna give her.yeah my ass.NO way.i cant possibly go up to her and ask her number too.likewise she'll prolly think 'who's this pervert now.' oh wells, tats just an assumption i am making.it may be right it may be wrong.
i am sure it was the first time i saw her smile.no not at me but at her friend (awwwww). her angelic face and hair stunned the shit out of me. i cldnt help not looking at her. i had to look at her. as wat nigel says, she is my bus-stop EC.
right now i am sitting in my school library idling my time.hopefully,i will be able to see her later on as i make my way home. *keeps fingers crossed.haha.
argh promos seem to be coming fast.YES FAST.i jolly well start revising and not get distracted easily.i dun wanna retain.no no.
i shall reap what i sow. (= mugging season is here.
spoke at : 2:42 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
longtimecoming.
its been a long time.
well,i don't know what i am feeling.she's been at the same bus stop same bus as i was in on the way to school.why is it that i only recently got her attention?what does her presence mean?is she just someone who needs to take a bus to school or is she a sign.i dun know i really dun.i feel weird when she is ard.really weird.
i just saw her yesterday.she was in the bus on the way home.ha.of course our eyes met.i wanted to smile but i didnt.in the bus while standing and dreaming i found myself staring at her SUBCONSCIOUSLY.i only realised when i saw her looking at me.poor girl,i heard i stare quite horridly when i am stoning.
we alighted tgt.she crossed the road while i didnt.as i walked i looked at her direction hoping she wld turn to look too.and she did.we were like idiots,walking and turning to look at the same time.ahh i dun know how she feels but i hope i dun appear as a pervert to her. =S saw her this morning and my heart was thumping.i dun know for watever reason ha.i looked at her once and i didnt see her alrr.
maybe i shld start smiling at her.yeah,maybe i shld (=
hope ta see you soon
spoke at : 3:39 PM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
pics.
me,yasi and veron !
me,jasmine and nigel !
i love my phone!
nice nice (=
spoke at : 10:48 AM
scary.
yesterday was national day cum fund raising day.loads of fun but at first i thought the day was made worse by the fact tat we were to have bio make-up pract after everything.haha.i was wrong.we had more fun instead!ranging from using a marker to write on the agar to the plunging of a wet cloth onto a table which had been wiped dry!
after sch mr low said i got 23 for chem.whee good i dun have to copy.well thats not the main point, at least i am improving.jope i wun disappoint anyone.must do well for promos.i coaxed mr low to join us that nite and yes he did yay!
initial plans was to meet there as soon as i can to eat first then head for tuition at 7.30pm but damn they coaxed me to stay.after all i started eating at 7pm la!haha i had difficulties eating.but i enjoyed cooking.i cooked and cooked and gave everything to mr low hahaha.speaking of him, he is ssooo darn funny.he doesnt like soft and cold drinks!so health conscious man!maybe aafter getting his second upper in chemistry he became like tat.i dunno.are u reading this now mr low?oh yeahh i havent paid him yet !
i must say i am amazed with the fireworks.they were remarkably brilliant!boom boom boom.everyone was like any other excited kid,screaming after every 'explosion' of various colourful fireworks.snap snap snap video video video.darn my phone has low memory so cldnt take much.ok i shall upload watever pics i got!
i left at 9.30pm.no cab.i walked left and right knowing how screwed i wld be.i ran all the way to the mrt.my shirt was soaked with sweat man ! so stinky. haha finally i reached home at 11pm.he told me off but thankfully my sis helped me,saying it was hard to get a cab because there was fireworks tat night so few cabs wld be ard.haha.phew.i am so not going to try like this again.not now not later not ever.i am a gd boy.i shldnt be doing this.sooooo,kok siang,appreciate it.i did it for u! (= happy birthday boy (:
spoke at : 10:27 AM
justin tan.
used to be from nyjc, graduated and free from Singapore's education system (for now) entering the army on the 10th of April!